BEDA #20 - Dreams

Dreams. Where do I start? In general, I want to be happy, successful and have people to share all that with. I'm already a very happy person, I get along with (mostly) everyone I meet and since I'm in high school I've learned to put all the drama aside and start over, see new faces and be in a new place and I couldn't be happier as to how it turned out.

1. I want a career in fashion journalism or in post-production. The latter is something I really love to do, but I'm afraid it's only a hobby and can't mix it up with what may be my future job. I would love to be involved in cinema, but I'm honestly too afraid. You have to be so talented and lucky. I've decided to treat it as a sort of second job or plan B. Sometimes I start thinking and I feel like I don't want to go into fashion journalism. Or journalism at all. I haven't quite figured that out yet. Sometimes I want to be a hippie, learn how to play guitar and live on a constant road trip.

2. I want to travel, travel, travel my heart out. I want to visit as many countries as possible and have an external drive filled with photographs. I won't bore you with traveling anymore, seeing as this post really sums it up.

3. I want to find love. But I don't think it's time for that now. At least I don't want to. All my life I've seen myself being or imagining myself with someone by my side, but somehow I've been developing a fear of commitment. I'm very complicated around cupid's territory. I don't even know if I want a family. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.

4. I want things. Call me materialistic, I'll agree with you. I want a nice house, nice IKEA furniture, nice clothes, books, movies, CDs, etc.

5. I want to live and work in New York, Paris and/or London. That would be a huge fulfillment in my life.

But damn, I'm about to turn eighteen, there's plenty of time to change my mind on all this and have different dreams. Life's a climb. But the view's great. Yes, that is a Hannah Montana: The Movie quote, so what? It's true. <3

Unrealistic dreams: I want to marry John Mayer, I want to be Miley Cyrus' friend, I want to be editor-in-chief of Vogue, I want to be a Hollywood actress, I want to be on America's Next Top Model, I want to cook with Jamie Oliver, I want to go to Hogwarts and to Narnia and many, many, many more things.

Until tomorrow!

Tomorrow's theme: Guilty Pleasures

Bisou, bisou *

* Photograph found here.

Cinematic Crisis

I'm a bit preoccupied with the world of motion pictures. I've been paying attention to numerous situations which motivate my concern:

• On October 2007 portuguese magazine Premiere shut down. No more magazines dedicated exclusively to cinema. The problem? There wasn't enough profit. Although one year later the magazine started publicizing the magazine once again, it's still something to be worried about.
• In my whole life, I've only seen four Blockbuster video renting shops here in Portugal. One will close down next month.

And I understand why the second problem is happening. People don't want to rent DVDs anymore. The Internet is right there: in libraries, at your friends' house, you probably have it in your own home. Downloading high quality movies is very easily done nowadays.

Even so, companies such as Meo or Zon (I think it would qualify as America's TiVo) offer a big list of movies that can be rented for a short amount of money. Obviously, movie lovers will go for that as well.

Even huge multinationals such as french Fnac are noticing a breakdown on their DVD profits (and CDs and books, etc.). If this continues, I'm sure that in a few years this industry won't know what to do. But what's the key to this problem? Downloading movies will never stop, especially now that the Internet is big stamp in our lives. You can easily get your movie informations on professional websites instead of magazines dedicated to the same matter.

As a big fan of motion pictures and possibly even a cinema student, I'm curious to see the consequences of all these problems, and what will be the future of the movie industry. What are your thoughts?

- Lo

BEDA #28 - Career path

Hi, there!

"Life isn't all rainbow cocktails and unicorn hamburgers." This was a quote by Maria Sansone on POPTUB. I just thought I'd share it with you.

I've been switching this page to YouTube or something over and over for three hours because I don't know what to write.

Any I need to go to bed or else I'll dream of another text sent by George Clooney.

Oh, I know what I'll talk about.

During the years, I've always changed my mind on what I wanted to be when I grew up. Like any other kid I dreamed about being an astronaut and then a pediatrician, but later discovered that my capacity for science was close to none. Then I moved on to wanting to be an archeologist, but I droped that option as well.

Since about a year and a half ago, I asked myself what I wanted out of life and what I actually wanted to do, to see if I could come to any conclusion. These three things came up:

1. I want to travel.

2. I want to work with people.

3. I want to write.

This resulted in me wanting to be a journalist.

I still do, don't get me wrong. But in the beginning of 2008 I discovered the Nerdfighter community. I'd made a few vlogs, but I didn't actually . . . I wouldn't say I didn't care about them, I just didn't give it much attention. Things are different now, though. I'm constantly filming things and editing stuff - school projects or just for fun, to have things to watch over and over.

But with this discovery that I found with editing video footage, I considered studying cinema. I'm so curious and fascinated to what it takes to build up a whole movie, because it's so much more than just the acting.

I just don't know what to choose now. I don't know if filming and editing is just a hobby, or if writing is just a hobby. I've been writing my whole life, though it's getting serious as the years go by, and so is filming. Friends and family tell me that they like my writing and that they love watching videos and projects I make, but somehow . . . it's not enough. I mean, you need to listen to a professional to tell you those things, someone who understands everything about this. That's why I'm having a hard time to actually make up my mind, because it seems like a hobby, although it would be great if I could turn it into a career.

Just to get feedback from Nerdfighters and total strangers, here's the first two chapters of the novel I'm writing: http://www.scribd.com/doc/14745122/Chapter-12

I hope you read them and leave me some feedback here on MJ :) It could really help me out in a way.

See you tomorrow, bloggers x

- Lo