I'm free

And I've decided I'm going to start every single work as soon as a professor talks about doing one. Or else I'll get even more sick. I got sick from nerves and with all the pressure. Sore throat, headache, my whole body ached. I'm better now, thankfully. But I don't want it to happen again.

I'm not exactly free, though.

Things to do during winter break (Dec 17th - Jan 2nd):

• 1 group work;
• study for two tests;
• prepare a presentation.

And probably study for another two tests but I think I should save those for later, I have time. Hopefully. Time, time, time.

Off to Barcelona tomorrow.

Things I hate #5

Pressure.

3PM

I can only think of 3PM of this Tuesday.

Done:

• 1 group work.

To do:

• 1 essay;
• 1 presentation;
• 2 tests.

Kill me.

College is killing me

I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work.

I have to.

I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work.

I've considered buying speeds just to keep up.

You tease me because I have so much work and you don't. Well, you're a quiter. At least I'm not.

I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work. I don't want to work.

I'm sick of this. I want to leave.

Things I hate #4

Crying when you're not next to me.

Things I hate #3

Losing physical memories forever.

Things I hate #2

I mostly fear routine even though I constantly live by it and even though I've constantly lived by it for... well, ever. I know there's no way I can ever get past it, so I try not to think about it.

But I'm one of the lucky people out there who has a little something that makes her a little happy every day and when I don't get it (which is rare, but still, it happens) I go mental. I get angry because I don't get it. See, I like it all scheduled. I start to get angry even if I don't get my little happy thing in time. Not in time, but at the time in which I usually get it.

Maybe I'm just an attention-seeking bitch.

Things I hate #1

I really hate it when people are constantly reminding me of stuff I've agreed to or stuff I have to do. I got it the first time. I don't need to be reminded every single hour that I have to meet with you the next day for a group work. Twice.

Time

Feel like writing.

I'm really missing time. I used to have time for everything, you know? Read, go on Tumblr, sleep. I miss having time. I'm a procrastinator and I'm aware that I still have three papers due, a presentation to prepare and two tests to study for. If I'd just do something, maybe I'd have some time to... do nothing. Or read.

I don't usually make sense.